~~Sarah Jane wrote a post today titled "Being Real." If you don't know Sarah you should really take the time to visit her blog. She's an artist, Mom, and business owner and she does it all so well.
~~It's strange because I've had some similar thoughts rolling around in my mind recently. Lately I would say that my brain most resembles one of those bingo ball cages, filled to the brim with thoughts that are constantly spinning. It's not a pretty picture.
~~To be honest I've been feeling stressed and overwhelmed lately. It's that slow, suffocating feeling that you constantly push down while plowing forward through your day. We're leaving on a week long trip in a little over 3 weeks and there's so much that needs to get done before then. My ultimate goal was to also have most of my Christmas things done before we left. It doesn't help that our society is so anxious to push time forward. Our Wal-Mart started playing Christmas songs the first day of November. While some people enjoy that, for me it just brings up the thoughts of all that needs to get done.
~~It's not that I don't love Christmas. I truly do. I love to watch the girls delight in all the wonder of the Season. It always makes me remember how excited I was as a little girl. So I have to stop and think, "Why, as an adult, has that joy been replaced with stress?"
~~Sarah talked about how multi-tasking has just become a normal part of all of our lives and yet the real joy comes when we can focus on each moment and truly be present in what we are doing. I believe that. I truly do.
But for me, just knowing it isn't going to help.
~~I realized today that I'm once again making my signature mistake; trying to handle life on my own.
Yes, there are a lot of things that need to get done in a short amount of time.
But I've been allowing my perfectionistic nature to drive me along.
I've become a Martha to the Max.
Sigh. I know better.
~~What I need to do is stop.
Get a notebook out and empty my brain.
Then I need to take that list to my Heavenly Father and ask for His help.
~~It's a hard thing to jump off the treadmill. Even now as I write this I can see the painting on my easel that I'm dying to get finished. I'm thinking about the laundry that needs to be folded and how I need to sort through the girl's clothes before the trip. We need to get a family picture made for the Christmas card. I need to find Dustin a new suitcoat................
~~I know that a lot of my perfectionism grew with Motherhood. I realize that now I'm the one creating the memories and traditions. I'm the one in charge of keeping it all together. So Isaiah 40:11 is a comforting scripture to me:
"He shall feed his flock like a shepherd: he shall gather the lambs with his arm, and carry them in his bosom, and shall gently lead those that are with young."
~~God knows that Motherhood isn't always easy; especially for control freaks like me. He knows that I tend to try too hard. And He's promised to gently lead me, if I will let Him.
~~Now, before I'm tempted to get busy again, I'm off to find that notebook.
I'm so glad you're here! "The Art of Life" is where I share my journey as an artist & Momma. It's a place where I hope to encourage other women that they are artists too. In this small little space I seek to share, document, and be reminded of God's wonderful grace, all around us. ....And I would be so happy to have you journey alongside me! So grab a cup of coffee and linger for a while. I hope you leave feeling refreshed.