~~First I want to thank each one of you for the thoughts, prayers, comments and emails. They mean more than you'll know. This has honestly been one of the most emotionally difficult weeks I've experienced. I still feel shell-shocked and numb. We knew Nana was sick, but none of us truly realized how serious it was. She was only 68, and always so full of life. I never really let myself think that we could possibly lose her.
~~She lived in Alabama but was buried here in Oklahoma, next to my Aunt. They had a viewing there on Sunday evening and then all the family headed this way. For the first time in a long time all 8 Grandkids were together and I know my Nana would have loved that. And yet it was hard because you felt this big hole. She should have been there, right in the middle of us; telling her stories and making us smile.
~~My family has always been very close and Nana was so much a part of my life. Ever since I heard the news Saturday morning, my mind has been flooded with memories. I have many, many memories of her and they're all happy ones. I'm thankful for those memories.
~~Her funeral was Wednesday and the weather was perfect, (a blessing for an Oklahoma March.) The chapel was filled with beautiful flowers. Nana touched so many lives and had many, many friends. It was amazing to see how many people one life can touch.
~~As I stood with my brother, sister and cousins at the graveside, I was struck by the feeling of time going by so fast. We're all grown now, not little kids anymore. I wanted so badly for time to pause, to hold still if just for a moment.
~~My family headed back to Alabama this morning and I've had a hard time wanting to get back into any sort of normal life routine. I still feel the need to pull away from everything else. I'm so sorry if I've owed you an email. Please bear with me.
~~I would like to ask for prayers for my Dad, Aunt, and Papa. I cannot hardly take seeing them hurt so much. My Dad is the strong, quiet type and this week is the first time I remember seeing him cry. It hurts me so much that my stomach has been acting up. It's going to be the most difficult for my Papa. He and Nana celebrated their 50th wedding anniversary last fall. His life just won't be the same without her.
~~God is good and even though His timing is different than ours, I know that He knows best. If anything, I have a deeper desire to reach out to others, to nurture friendships and relationships.
Because none of us knows how many days we have left. The close bond I have with each of my family members was a comfort to me and I'm determined to keep it that way, for my Nana's sake.
I'm so glad you're here! "The Art of Life" is where I share my journey as an artist & Momma. It's a place where I hope to encourage other women that they are artists too. In this small little space I seek to share, document, and be reminded of God's wonderful grace, all around us. ....And I would be so happy to have you journey alongside me! So grab a cup of coffee and linger for a while. I hope you leave feeling refreshed.